Well. I didn’t see that one coming. I am totally wiped out and could wipe the puddle on the floor, that is me.
After months, weeks and days of utter cheerfulness and Pollyanna method, the mighty self crumbled and I’m weeping over any damn little thing. Could be the pain meds. Could be that I feel that having cancer once was enough. That I paid my ‘dues’. I feel like I carried this big sack up the mountain, slid back down, picked it back up and go again.. and again. I feel overwhelmed and sad. I wish I could find a Naturopathic Doc who would lead me through this jungle of choices. Which one to do? Which one to avoid?
I don’t want to repeat, even one more time, what my test result was and how this brings the reality closer and closer. Then again, tomorrow is another day and I’ll carry on, chin up, etc.— Thanks Cameron for catching me and giving me a soft place to fall.
Mom,
You don’t even have to feel better, or ready, or act any particular way tomorrow, either.
Remember, it’s the resistance to any feeling that hurts. Try not to judge what you are feeling, or push it away, wishing it were gone, thinking it’s bad or wrong. Just watch it, knowing it will pass, sending love into it as all of us are now.
Cameron
Inge,
Have you tried Dr. Lepisto here in GJ? He is a naturopathic doctor that I’ve heard good things about.
I’ve enjoyed reading your blog. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Camino sounds wonderful.
Julie 🙂
I’d meant to post answer earlier but then, what with everything else, forgot. I did call him but talked with the receptionist. End result. He won’t inject me with Iscador as he’s doing his own Vitamin E protocol. I’m searching for other places as we ‘speak.’
Thank you Julie. I will check him out. Feeling much better. Getting ready to hike in a few minutes up the Canyon.
Human emotion must be felt and dealt with! There should be never an apology for releasing stress and fear. Tears cleanse the soul and gets out pain and negativity!
Amen. I have had a few ‘soul baths.’